Aal izz well...

Ever since the new year started, I've been infused with this strange sense of optimism, I have no idea why. I was extremely pessimistic and a bit of a downer all of last year, so this is actually a big change in me, which I'm pretty sure was brought about by my trip and the events of it, but the sun generally seems to shine a little brighter these days.

I resolved to be more laid back and not complicate things by over thinking, and I think that's working out pretty well for me. After a somewhat strange and complicated liaison with an old boyfriend (who I've been friends with since we broke up), I had started my old thought process of wondering "what this meant" and over thinking and starting to get morose and generally not having fun with the situation at hand, and he told me I should "go with the flow and that sometimes, if we don't complicate things, they tend to un-complicate themselves." I thought about what he said, and it made a lot of sense, and since then, I've been trying to remind myself of that in every situation. It's pretty strange taking advice from someone who's only giving it to you to get what they want from you, but it was good advice nonetheless. This guy and I haven't spoken as often as we used to since I got back, but strangely enough, that's not bothering me.

Classes started and that's been strangely nice, have even been making an effort to be friendly with fellow students, and even the professor in one class, who, strangely enough, was one of the people who evaluated my application. I even took a friend's advice and was completely myself without putting on any airs or sophisticated masks at a job interview this week, though I don't know how well that will work out for me, but time will tell. But yes, I am going with the flow and not complicating things and so far, in the words of Amir Khan's character, "aal izz well."